Because ...

I need answers, not through a need to blame someone but because I need not to blame me

I feel guilty 

I need to know why

I love him and miss him 

I want my children to go to sleep and not have the aching fear that they may never wake 

Sometimes I feel like an imposter 

I want to know there was nothing I could do

I failed 

If I don't who will

I want to know it wasn't something I missed

My children deserve a future 

I can't just sit back knowing that someone wants to try give us an answer

I'm selfish

My heart aches so terribly 

This is all I can do for him now 

Today is a special day for us, our last baby starts school but, the start of anything new for all of my boys is a stark reminder for us that one will never reach these milestones.
September is the official start for our £100k Challenge and so from this point on I will find my newly acquired 'free time' being taken up with fundraising.
I know many of you have asked about Alexander's Charity Ball and this is in hand I promise and once we have this confirmed you will all know about it.

I will be updating the website and Facebook with the events I have planned so if you'd like to join us or can help us out I'd be really grateful.  If you'd like to hold your own fundraiser then please do get in touch and I will help you out the best I can.

We have our JustGiving Page now live as well as our Text Donation Number as well 

https://www.justgiving.com/Alexanders100kChallenge/

or Text LTAR99 £(and an amount of your choice) to 70070