That date !
The date permanently in my memory bank, one I will never forget alongside my children's birthdays this date is the date of my son's death.
It's such an insignificant date, nothing important, not to us anyway before 2007.
I can tell you exactly where I was on that date, what I did and when and how that date made me feel. I'd give anything for it to be insignificant again, for it not to be important, for it to be just another day.
In some ways it feels like only days since Alexander died and in others it feels like an eternity we've been without him. I look at how the boys are growing up and I feel cheated for him, what would he be like now?
The date is a hard one What do we do? How do we mark the day? This year as we always try too, we will do something together as a family. Joe has chosen the cinema for us we are off to see The Lego Movie!
I'm thankful for the time I've had with my brilliant boys and the time I will continue to have, there are lots of changes happening within our family as the boys grow and take their exams, look at their future and the careers they'd like and of course Joe starts school in September, the last to go apart from his big brother who will never get the chance.
As the weeks count down to this day it's hard to know the right way to mark it but we take flowers to our darling boy and light candles for him. He is our shining star and has been for 7 years.
7 years ago I remember the lost looks in friends and families eyes as they so desperately wanted to help, to take away the pain not knowing how to express their sadness. Thank You each and every one of you for your support and understanding at that time and since, just being there and letting us talk was enough.
I will love you forever Alexander Robert Richardson, know that you will hold a piece of my heart for eternity. We will never forget you, you are our angel, our star in the sky and I was so privileged to have held your hand on earth for the short time you were here.
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